The Dark Closet

My heart is divided more often than I’d like to admit.

It contains a large open space, like a modern house, where no walls divide the different living spaces, and where the light shines into all the corners.

It also contains a dark closet where I go to stew. Do you have one of those, too?

When I’m in my dark closet, I can be mad at whoever I want, for however long I want, and worry about whatever I want for however long I want.

When I’m in my dark closet,

  • I wade through the mental sludge of past injustices and hurts, and of things that make me afraid.
  • Sometimes I pretend I am the judge, but don’t admit for a second that I’m doing so.
  • I go through mental wrangling of what I’d like to say to that person.
  • I try to figure out a solution to my problems, analyzing them from every angle known to me (which is not nearly the amount of angles that me would like to think me has access to.)

Then Jesus knocks on the door of my closet.

“Honey, are you ready to come out now?” He says.

I open the door just a tad, and a sliver of light comes into the closet.

“I’m so upset!”

“I’m so afraid!” or

“I’m so overwhelmed!” I might say. And I pour out to Him everything I’ve been ruminating about.

As I talk to Jesus, the door opens more, and more light comes in.

He reminds me that He, in His wisdom, has access to a lot more angles than I could ever imagine, and He already knows all the solutions.

In fact, He’s got a plan!

None of this takes Him by surprise. He is perfectly at peace and is not wringing His hands at the turn of events that has me so upset. He has everything under control, and He has some things to teach me.

And, wouldn’t I like to come out of the dark closet now?

He invites me into the rest of my heart-house where His light shines and where He waits to walk in the light with me.

He invites me to walk in thankfulness and joy for who He is and for all He has done and will do for me.

I walk out of the darkness and into His light. I don’t want to go into the dark closet ever again.

I could install a light switch, but I might decide not to turn the light on.

I’m asking God instead to do some remodeling in my heart. (He’s a carpenter, right?)

I’m asking Him to break down the walls and just get rid of that closet so we can have more room for loving fellowship together and more room for His light and His love to flow through me to show the world how wonderful He is and what a joy it is to know Him!

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9 thoughts on “The Dark Closet

  1. This is so beautiful and so true. Last Friday, Jesus knocked really hard on that closet door. I had been hiding in that part of my heart – not from fear or anxiety or anything – but from sin. Jesus confronted me head on and there were many, many tears. Light was shone in that closet and part of it was cleaned out. I am so humbled, thankful and tender. Great post x

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  2. Praise Jesus, Sarah, that He knocks and seeks us! May we seek to give Him our undivided attention and devotion and to give Him full cooperation and surrender as He deconstructs those closets so that we might know Him more fully! 🙂


  3. Father God certainly meets us even in the dark places of our heart and our minds. I love that he always bring us back to reality that he is the great I am and loves all of us unconditionally. One scripture I remind myself in times of trouble is John 14: 27 when Jesus said “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

    Ruth, this is beautifully done. God has blessed you with this wonderful gift.

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  4. I loved this analogy. Sometimes we don’t even realise when we’re in that dark closet or worse, we simply enjoy being there! Thanks so much for ‘shedding light’ on this topic in such a relatable way. I’ll be sure to share this on social media to spread the word.
    Hugs and blessings!


    1. You’re right, Marva. May we enjoy being with Jesus more!
      Also, God knows that I personally remember things better with a picture associated with the lesson, so he gives me the pictures, and I pass them on to you. If you check out the other devotional posts on this blog, you’ll see what I mean.


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