Today an old, unwelcome acquaintance came to visit and brought along some of his unwelcome buddies. I’m going to call them self-pity, hurt feelings, rejection, lies, slow burn, unforgiveness, blindness, and unthankfulness.
They all ganged up on me after I spent some time with a large group of people, most of whom made me feel like I was invisible and worthless (not on purpose).
But, I mean, really, how hard is it to smile and say “hi” to everyone in the group as you see them instead of pretending that you don’t see them? I just can’t understand this mentality of sitting at the same table and refusing to look at some of the people you are eating with.
Jesus was not like that.
And I don’t want to be like that.
But it still hurts to be treated like that.
So, I know that I need to pray for them that God will show them His will in how they should treat other people.
And I know that this is spiritual battle, and somehow it is very intense, and I feel ill prepared.
So, I decided to go to the store and buy some ice cream, Bunny Tracks™, with thick chocolate ribbon and peanut butter chocolate bunnies in delicious vanilla ice cream!
That should work, right?
Turns out it only works while you are eating it, then sours in your mouth because your heart is still hurting.
Anyway, on the way to the store, the Lord gave me a reminder of His love, the only love that I should be seeking after. The following song came up on the radio:
As I listened and prayed the words of the song to the Lord, the tears of self-pity that I was holding inside turned to tears of joy, of thankfulness, of love for my God who never mistreats me,
- who always accepts me for who I am,
- who always sees me,
- who is always with me,
- who always values me and cares for me no matter how other people treat me.
He is my Portion.
Everybody doesn’t have to like me or say hi or even treat me like a human being.
God is big enough, and His love is big enough to make up for any lack that others may display!
Thank you, Lord, that You love me perfectly. Please defend me and deliver me from these unwelcome visitors, in Jesus’ name! Please help me to dwell and rest in Your acceptance, in Your will, in Your promises, even when others seem not to notice or care. Help me to forgive freely the rejections of the past so that You can set me free from the bondage that comes from those old roots festering way down deep in the dark recesses of my heart only to resurface when someone says or does something that makes me feel like they are rejecting me, even when they actually are not. Help me to seek the love and acceptance I need from You who know me and love me perfectly, and not from people, who might misunderstand me. Thank You, Lord, that You never misunderstand me, whether I have good expectations or not, and You still love me even when my eyes have not been fervently focused on You. Help me to dwell in You and worship You and listen for Your loving voice at all times. In Jesus’ name I ask it, Amen.
Have you ever been treated like you are invisible? How do you overcome that feeling? Does recognizing how much God loves and values you bring you comfort?